my new favourite chocs!

saw it in germany. craved for it even till i got back to singapore. finally got to try it in the past week.

LOVE IT.

he’s cute, and i’m distracted.

update on the heal the world performance

and so, there are complicated formations to follow, and hand actions! hahahaha! it is really amusing.. we spent about 2hrs trying to get the movements etc right today.. it was hilarious!

in the lift today, i heard a girl telling her friend that one of her friends is so busy doing her fyp that she has no time to eat. and now she has to buy new pants cos they are all too loose! why don’t this kind of things happen to me huh! if i have to buy new pants, it’ll be to buy bigger sizes la! JEALOUS! rahhhh..

my tribute to mj

guess what?

my department is having a welcome tea this friday.. which is supposed to be for welcoming the new people in the department, aka me! and each lab is supposed to participate, setting up a food stall and performing or participating in a quiz.. and my labmates decided that we would SING A SONG!! ughhhhh.. yet, hahahahaha.. ok, meaning i thinking it’s rather amusing yet it’ll be so embarrassing la!

yeah, we’re singing heal the world by mj.. which i like.. so okay lor..

heal the world

make it a better place

for you and for me and the entire human race

there are people dying

if you care enough for the living

make a better place for you and for me

and speaking of human race, i’m going for the nike 10km run, or rather, for me it’s more like walk/stroll, this saturday!! the shirt, sadly, is not very nice, and i really really hope i managed to complete it!! ((: quite excited! yayy!

it’s little things like these that make my day

super touched by the unexpected nutella.

delighted by the letter all the way from china.

and sweets to sweeten my days. (:

THANK YOU! you have helped cynthia lee survived yet another day! ((:

stuck in my head

I’m going home
Downhearted and hoping
I’m close to some new beginning
I know
There’s a reason for everything
That comes and goes

But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
I may be weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing
In clouds with that sweet silver lining

Most days
I try my best to put on a brave face
But inside
My bones are cold and my heart breaks
But all the while
Something is keeping me safe
And alive

But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
I may be weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing
In clouds with that sweet silver lining

I wont give up like this
I will be given strength
And now that I’ve found it
Nothing can take that away

But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
I may be weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing

But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
I may be weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing
In clouds with that sweet silver lining

panic attack

in church today, we discussed about ‘worry’. i used to worry alot. like to the point that it was almost paranoid! and i would like to think God calmed me down alot. i’m glad i learnt along the way that i cannot control so many things that happen, yet things always turn out fine cos God watching out for me.

i also realised, though, that these days, i just skip the ‘worrying’ step and head straight for the ‘panicking’ step. more often than not, i find that i’m sub-consciously telling myself to take slow deep breaths. why am i saying all this? cos tomorrow is monday and it’s supposed to be e-learning week but i still have class. i was hoping for a pseudo reading week so that i can catch up with my work. and i should be repeating the experiment of mine that failed last week. and i hoping i would succeed last week cos this week i have to go up to CeLS for 3 of the 5 days and do another experiment for the first time, and i’m really confused cos i still don’t really know how much virus to add cos i don’t know how strong my virus cos my experiment last week failed. and once the week starts, i’ll be busy till it ends, and then one more week goes by, one week nearer to the exam for the modules i know nothing about cos i never have time for them. one week closer to the deadlines of all my pbls, group presentation, paper submission etc. oh, and i might have to find time to travel to ntu again. and so, tomorrow is monday. the mere thought makes the panic bubble from inside of me. breathe in breathe out breathe in breathe out. my mind cries in frustration, in attempt to release some of the pressure.

i need to remind myself once again, it’s okay. things will be okay, even though you feel like you’re going to die. even if you think there can be no possible way out of it. it’ll be okay. just like all the other times you thought you were going to die. cos God will pull you through it.

tomorrow is monday. and i hate this lifestyle i have. work is not and will never be a priority in my life, and so i hate that i’m being forced to give it first place. i can’t wait to graduate! may, please come quickly!!

mad world by adam lambert

my new favourite song! (along with chris daughtry’s poker face)

((:

poker face by chris daughtry

love it! (:

teenage obsession is bad for health

BRIAN AND DELTA ARE GETTING MARRIED!!

which is like totally old news but i just found out.. haha.. goes to show that i’m past my ‘teenage obsession’ days.. during which, i really liked westlife! hahahaha (: yes, i smile fondly at the memories (and feel really old at the same time). and, i liked bryan best, despite the disapproving looks i got from my friends (fellow westlife fans). and i must say now, once and for all, why cannot?! everyone likes nicky and shane la! cannot like bryan MEH?!

haha, that’s was so uncharacteristic of me. hahahahaha, anyway, my point was that brian’s getting married to australian singer delta goodrem who is so so so so so so so so PRETTY and her voice is so good too laaa! (jealous!.. oops, being uncharacteristic again.) but love their duet (which is also pretty old, 2004 i think). today’s the first time i youtubed it hence today is also the day i find out that they’re engaged.. haha, talk about being outdated!

i chose to post the live version instead of the mtv cos the way he looks at her.. sighhhh, so sweet la.. can’t stand it!!